Dear Friends,
I am not a boddhisatva... because i can be an asshole if i wanted
to. But I will like to recount my expereince with the Boddhisatva
vow.
I took the Boddhisatva vow lifetimes ago. Well, it has been
continuous hell for me. When you take the vow, you agree to assist
others in their liberation. Because of this, very difficult people
will enter your life. You will encounter all kinds of difficult
people and situation because you 'believe' you need to 'save'
them.
Let me ask a question? Why do you want to take the vow. If it is
for glory or a beautiful self-image... we will regret it. For my
case, the reason for my taking the vow is less than
altrustic.
You see, lifetimes before I took the vow, I have powerful but dark
lives. I was involve in very harmful acts... and that caused me to
be very guilty. Lifetimes forward, i try to appease my guilt by
taking the boddhisatva vow. But, what could have been more
important is to clear the karma of harmfulness rather than taking a
vow to cover a guilt.
Dear friends, i ask of you to uncover the exact reason for taking
the vow.
All the best...